Grieving x 3

One unexpected thing about Brandon dying is I find myself mourning not only the loss of my husband (1), but I'm also mourning the loss of my friend (2), and the loss of Brandon himself (3). It's like three* independent mournings. I guess when you grieve, you don't just missing individual, but the roles that they filled, and maybe even the meanings behind those roles.

*And really, there are more than 3 roles to be grieved, but the three mentioned above are the broader categories that seem to encompass any others for me. Maybe it would make more sense to just classify this concept as "polygrief." Thanks, math.